My reputation is on the line

I will appreciate my parents and miss there ridicule. But recently I just don’t like them. I’m so sick of there nit picking and boring pointless lectures.

i don’t know why but today i looked through pictures of certain people from my past and thought of memories i had with them. mostly good. some not so good. i don’t know i miss these people sometimes. my life is better without them…or at least its supposed to be. without out them, sometimes i feel empty. like a vital piece of me is missing. like if they just cam back my life would be complete. my life would snap back into focus and suddenly everything would be clear. and everything would make sense.i know thats not true…but sometimes i wish it was… 

i don’t know why it takes so long. you that saying you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone? well, how do you know if it is gone? because after all people always leave but sometimes they come back. again, i don’t why it took you so long to come back…and to be honest i don’t know how to stomach it. i guess in someway or another i still care for you. hell, i might even love you. i don’t know. all i know for sure is that there is a part of me that is glad you are back, and then there is this other part of me that wishes you just stayed away because im not sure if i can do this again.

That everyone time I get a text from you I’m wishing you were someone else. I guess I’m not over you yet. I wish I was. I want to be. Only time will tell. It’s just not fair. But hey, that’s life.

On a scale from one to ten there is no numerical number that satisfies the lengths in which I hate you.

you don’t love him..and he sure as hell doesnt love you. hes a player and you’re a slut doesnt equal a happy ending.

you said “sluts hate sluts” and that you would never date anyone that resembles a “slut” but yet you can screw one..ok, because that makes sense.

and it cracks me up to listen to my roommate going off on one of  her “boyfriends” i swear this school should on MTV. Funny AF

whatever the hell that means….i only want a few things in life right now. and that is to ace this bio final. leave this crappy place also known as Andrew College. i want to be able to accept the various things i cannot change. i want to slap a few certain someone’s in the face and/or punch them in the balls. i want complete and utter silence. i want better headphones. i want better music. i want someone to be my Pacey Witter.  i want a love that even time will lie down and be still for. i want it all. most of all i want sleep…but that great kind of sleep. where you wake up and youre just refreshed. that kind of sleep where all your problems seem to be anwsered in that dream you had..even if you can’t remember it. i want to be known. i want to be remembered. i want to love and be loved. i really want chocolate. this is just a waste of a post of all the things i want. whatever…back to studying/sleeping/screwing/loving/hating/mylife…